I won’t settle for ordinary, I want extraordinary. Actually scratch that, I need extraordinary. My heart yearns for it.
Most dream of prince charming. I do so I always strive to find the old-fashioned kind of love I believe my heart deserves. But how does one go about finding it?
For awhile I thought I had found something that was so amazing that I thought I've really found the one. But as time passed, I realized that maybe I was settling for less than I deserved. Deep down I felt that something was off with the love that we had. And I had to follow my heart's instinct.
Don’t get me wrong, he’s a great guy. He’s funny and caring, but when I was with him there were moments I questioned if this was the love I actually wanted. If the guy is right for you, you can't possibly question your feelings.
Finally one day I realized that I needed to follow my gut or I would really miss out on true love. If he was right for me, I would still be as head over heels in love with him as I was when we first started dating. But I was getting sick of the same old safe routine that we had going. I was settling and so was he, so I had to end it.
I strive for that love that had passion and excitement. I knew I had to let go of this ordinary love in order to find my extraordinary one.
But I have no idea where to go from here. I feel absolutely stuck. For a long time I had been stuck on him being my everything, my future. Now he was my past and I’m not sure how to deal with it. He was not only my love but also my best friend.
Yet, I sit here and know that at least for now, he is not the one. He can not give me that extraordinary love that I long for. So as hard as it may be, I need to cut ties. For my own sake along with his. I want him to find that love as well. He’s an amazing guy and he deserves nothing less.
Because I think everyone deserves that extraordinary love and should go out and find it. Find that person that makes you never question your worth for a second, that never makes you doubt that what you have is truly what your heart and soul needs.
Find someone that gives you chills and looks at you like you’re beautiful every single day and tells you that. Not only tells you, but makes you believe it.
I am a hopeless romantic and I can honestly say I can’t settle for anything less than extraordinary. I need extraordinary love and passion.
No one should have to live their lives with “what-ifs” about love.
I know that I can’t.