I have learned a few things over the years about heartaches but two words can summarize all of it.
You cry and sob and you break your own heart with each deep breath you try and force out. You call your best friends no matter the time of the day and their hearts hurt for you. They can ask you the same general questions over and over again, they can ask you what they can do to help and if you’re okay.
It’s easy to put two and two together and figure out who’s causing you this pain, the boy who doesn’t deserve the tears streaming down your face.
It’s a constant cycle of one moment crying until there isn’t anything left, to dragging yourself sorrowfully through the day only to turn around once your head hits your pillow to watch the tears come streaming down again.
You are stronger than this. You are stronger than he is. You’re too smart to be so upset over him. You’ve pushed through the hardest days of your life and you are still going. You will wake up tomorrow and keep going just as you have been.
You’ve let the tears fall, you’ve eaten all the ice cream, you’ve cried to your friends and you’ve asked yourself “Why” a million and two times. Eventually you have to break the cycle. You aren’t ever going to hear the answers you are looking for. Nothing is going to make this any simpler.
You deserve a love that makes life easy. You deserve someone who sees the world in you. Love isn’t supposed to hurt that way. Love isn’t supposed to crush you to your breaking point. Betrayal, heartbreak, loneliness and hurt will do this to you but not love.
You’ll find someone who treats you the way you deserve. He’ll teach you new things, he’ll value your opinion. He’d never think about causing tears to stream down your beautiful face and if he did he’d be there making it better.
He’ll make the effort to get to know you. He’ll not only text you sporadically throughout the day but he’ll even pick up the phone and call you. He’s going to be kind, he’ll make you laugh, and he’ll be by your side when he’s needed. He won’t be perfect, but he won’t just like you, he’ll love you.
He will make plans for you guys, and he’ll keep his word. He’ll drive those extra miles to see you even if it’s just for a little bit of time. This guy is going to be a decent human being, someone who has goals and ambitions and knows that sometimes life requires a little compromise.
It’s the guy you deserve.
So the guy you’re crying over is just one guy. He isn’t worth ruining your mascara for. He let go an amazing girl. The guy you deserve is out there you just have to step out again and enjoy life and eventually you’ll find each other.
He isn’t the one if he is okay with tearing your confidence down, with making you think there are so many things wrong with you. Why would you want to be with someone who only wants to give you a fraction of them? Would you let your girlfriends stay with someone who neglects them in any way?
You know that answer is no.
So dry those eyes. Put that gorgeous smile back on your face. You have to promise me that you won’t give up on love because you deserve a real kind of love and don’t settle until you have it.
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