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Sometimes You Have to Blindly Trust that He Won't Break Your Heart

We fall in love everyday, and sometimes we don't even think that we are until it's already done. Until our hearts have made up their minds. It sneaks up on you and suddenly, you're thinking about that person constantly. 

That's what you did to me you know? I don't know if you knew what you were doing, I don't know if you were planning on it or if it was only by mistake. I don't know if you had a million reasons or no reasons at all but I do know one thing for sure. 

I would rather cross the line with you than stare at the chance I didn't take for the rest of my life. And that's what you are. Just another chance. Another leap of faith. Just one more time that I let someone in, someone that I want to stay. 

So please believe me when I tell you that I'm not taking any of it less lightly. I never thought that it would go this far, that we would get this close. But here we are. 

I don't think that I could tell you the exact time and place when I looked at you and thought, oh well this is it. This is the person I want. I don't think that it happened slowly. I think that it happened all at once, I just wasn't paying too much attention. 

Because I know with guys like you, there's always a risk involved. There's always a chance that you could decide that you're not really sure about me. It happens all the time. There's a chance that you could decide that what you really want is to walk away. And I have no control over that. 

It's not because you're a bad guy, I know that sometimes it seems that way. But you come with a history. You come with baggage just like me. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm crazy about you. For so many different reasons but I think the most important one is that I know that I've let you close enough to hurt me. 

I know that I trust you, and to me, that means way more than "I want you" or "I need you" or even "I love you". Because without even trying, you broke through all the walls I've built up over time. Just one look from you and they all came crashing down. 

I'm not saying that I need you to read my mind, that I want to spend every waking moment with you, that I see forever with you because I don't. I'm just hoping that in the end, this all works out for the best. It might be a mistake to tell you, but I'm counting on you. 

To be careful with my heart. To take the time to get to know me, not just the person that stands beside you and smiles when you say something funny. I don't believe in second chances, not after all this time. And not after so many let downs. 

I don't want you to fix me because I know you can't. And I won't try and fix you because that damage was done long before I met you and it made you who you are. It made you the guy that I wanted to lean on. 

But when I say that I'm hoping and preying that you know what you're doing, that you know that you're already in too deep to walk away easily, I hope you know that I mean it. It's not everyday that people get into one another's lives and really belong there. 

But I think that this is different. I think that you are different. So, I want you to know that when I say I'm giving you my heart, this time it's real. And I just hope you don't break it.