Listen, I Love You

I know that sometimes I disappoint you, get on your nerves, and drive you absolutely crazy. 

I rarely think before I speak, never know what I want, and consistently pull myself down. 

I’m used to being put down, let down, and fighting to be heard. 

Always being deprived of the simple things, starving of compassion, peace, respect, and mutual love in a relationship. 

I don’t know what a happy relationship is.

I know that I’m not perfect and can be highly self-destructive, which makes me hard to love. 

I don’t always give you the answers that you want, or make it easy for you to give love in return. 

I ask too much of you and sometimes don’t give enough in return. 

I stress over things not worth my time, and I kill every ounce of your patience. 

The breathing isn’t easy and the loving isn’t effortless. 

But listen.

I know that it takes a special guy to understand it. 

To want me to know what it feels like to be loved, heard, and wanted. To give it all to make sure I know what happy feels like in a relationship.

To go out of his way to prove me wrong, even when I don’t believe it or even deserve it.  

I know that it takes a special guy to accept it. 

To walk beside me and constantly reassure me of all of the unnecessary nonsense.

To go above and beyond to reassure my happiness. 

I know that I don’t make it easy, but I want to you to that I’ll always choose you. No matter what, it will always be you. 

Still, I want you to know that in a lifetime of rushed decisions, wrong turns, and messes, that you’re the first thing that’s ever felt right. 

You’re the only one who can make me smile without even trying, affect my emotions with every decision you make, and the only one I’ve ever been terrified of losing. 

It’s you — it’s always been you.

So, listen. I love you. 

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