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I Can’t Just Stand By And Watch You Treat People The Way You Do Because Of Him

I know best friends are supposed to stand by each other through everything. Shitty guys, crazy nights and everything in between. So I stood by you as you blamed and tore apart other people, including your friends, for your relationship problems with a guy who doesn’t even deserve an ounce of your attention. Because that's what I was told best friends were supposed to do.

I watched you turn into a person I would never associate with. And it breaks my heart.

I stood by you when he pushed you away, dragged your name through the dirt, broke your heart repeatedly and point blank lied to your face. I've watched you run back to him time and time again. I've watched you believe his words over mine. All while trying to hold my tongue and losing friends in the process.

I am, admittedly, a person who is “too nice” and I can no longer stand by how you’re treating people because of a guy. I’m worn out and my heart is tired. And you’ve already pushed me away.

I’ve always believed in letting people do what makes them happy, be with whoever makes them happy and just let it all be – if it is legal and isn’t hurting anyone else.

But you are hurting other people. You’ve dug to the depths of betrayal because of him and haven’t even batted an eye. 

You’ve blackmailed and cut people out in an instant, the second they accidentally do anything to potentially threaten whatever type of twisted relationship you have. Because as long as he’s not mad at you and is in your life, everything is all fine in your eyes. Not realizing the mess you’ve made in your wake. Too blinded by him and your feelings for him to recognize everything you’re losing.

But maybe you don’t care. You’ll just go on to the next set of girlfriends who don’t hate him.

The saddest part of it all is that I slowly don’t care anymore. I care about you one hundred percent, but not this situation.

If I don’t have to deal with him and the drama continually being created by you and your relationship, I’m good. If I don’t have to continually watch him manipulate you, lie to you and just be a straight up terrible person, my heart might not be as heavy. I’ll stop being stuck in a continual state of “how can she possibly still want to be with him after the way he’s treated her?”

I won’t have to watch you constantly walking on eggshells and hiding things from him in fear of his, usually overreacting, reaction. I won’t witness him lying to you about other girls staying at his place. 

You're too smart for this.

He has told you and others, again and again, that he will never date you. Listen to him, because he isn't lying this time. He is eventually going to break your heart for good by moving one with someone new or dropping you like fire when he's done with you. So please stop breaking your own heart every time you go back to him.

I know fully moving on from him will suck. I know the feeling of true utter heartbreak. I know. And I don't blame you for being so wrapped up in these strong emotions. Sometimes they catch you out of nowhere and their grips are deafening. 

But I promise you, you will make it through. And when you do, the sky will be just a little bit brighter and you will be happier – even if you think you are happy now.

You deserve so much more.

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