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Bruised, Broken, and Scarred but My Walls Are Coming Down

We all have roadblocks in life holding us back from successfully moving forward, boxing us in where we’re comfortable. Our mental walls vary in the category, but they all revolve around one core: letting go and letting God.

It’s a lot easier said than done, and for the girl who’s bruised, broken, and scarred, the initial act of letting go is almost as extreme as reaching for the stars.

But you see, I’m that girl.

I don’t know how to give it all up or how to let go of what it is that’s been dragging me down for so long. I do, however, know how to suck myself dry of all that I am and hold onto things terribly bad for me.

I know that I’m worth extreme happiness and living a wall free life, but I don’t know how to get there.

My heart is bruised from past experiences no human being should ever have to endure. My mind is broken by misconstrued communications. And my love is scarred from all of the flaws picked up along the way.

This is where my insecurities, my mental walls slowly began creeping up on me growing higher and stronger.

I knew deep down I had a purpose, but it was getting clouded by the process of finding who I was, what I was meant to be, and exactly how much I had to offer. I couldn’t get past the walls my mind had built up around me. But the thing is, these walls are meant to be broken down and expanded because that’s how we get to the core of our purpose.

Purpose of the process. That’s how it always should be and should have been all along.

Because when we allow for our purpose to be overshadowed by our process, we lose sight of any sign of purpose. We become discouraged and want to give up but we deserve more than a half-assed effort. We deserve pure happiness living life to the fullest when we find our purpose.

And my purpose… it’s greater than the borders that surround me.

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