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To The ‘Best Friend’ Who Cut Me Out Like I Never Existed

So here we are, “bestie”. After everything that we’ve gone through; thick and thin, ups and downs, it never crossed my mind that our friendship would ever fall apart. You suddenly cut me out of your life like I was nothing.

It’s really hard to swallow how I never saw it coming from you; the one person that I trusted the most in this world. I didn’t think it would affect me this much. Feeling torn and crushed is really an understatement.

It’s not easy to come to terms with the fact that your betrayal is the biggest slap in the face, but I’m finally beginning to put the pain that you’ve inflicted behind so that I can move on from our broken friendship.

The memories that we built together cannot be erased but they can no longer have the place in my heart that they once had.

As hard as it might be, you chose to end our friendship by wrecking me and I have to learn to live with that. I also have to find forgiveness within myself, so that I can move on from our friendship without resentment.

But I have to say, it won’t be easy. What you did to us was cruel, but I guess that’s something you have to live with. I know in my heart I was loyal to you. I might have not been perfect but to the best of my knowledge, I was always fair to you.  Even if we didn’t always agree on everything, I was always willing to talk things out and compromise. That’s what friends are for, right?

I won’t rule out the possibility that perhaps you cut me out of your life because of something I did, or something about me that you just couldn’t live with. Whatever it was, you could have been honest with me about it. I gained your trust and deserved your honesty. 

I thought that I really knew you, but I guess your actions prove that I never truly did. Either way,  our friendship was sacred to me and your actions tarnished the bond that we built.

I know that I’ll forgive you with time, but I won’t forget. And what I won’t forget is how amazing our friendship was while it lasted. All the moments that we experienced will forever have a special place in my heart. We laughed, cried and grew up together and that’s priceless.

With all honestly, I can bring myself to hate you. I’d like to think that somewhere in your heart you’re regretting cutting me out as you did. I wish you the best wherever you are. I might be naive, but I feel that wishing you to hurt like I am right now would make me into someone I’m not

Before I move on, I’d like to let you know that our friendship meant everything to me. Thank you for the good memories that you leave behind and for showing me what friendship is not supposed to be. I hope that deep down you realize that what you did was wrong. 

I won’t miss you, but I’ll miss the good times. That’s all I can honestly say to you.