I don’t know how to message or text at the right times, I don’t know how to seem like I’m interested but not really at the same time.
I don’t know whether or not I’m being clingy, and I certainly don’t know how to have the right conversation on a date e.g. what to say, what not to say, what food I should order, what color my nails should be, etc.
I may not know how the rules to the game, but I do know how to love from the bottom of my heart.
When I love, I love hard. I wanna get to know you. I don't just want to know where you're from, I want to know why you love it or hate it with a passion. I want to know the things you could talk forever about and things that make you roll your eyes.
I want us to be best friends.
I'm not the best with deciphering hidden messages like let's chill. If I love you, I'll be honest with you because honesty to me is commitment. Where there are no secrets, there's trust and comfort.
I just wanna have fun.
I want our dates to bring down our poker faces and break our shells. I can go for down time at the movies or a trip to the roller rink on a summer day. As long as we're having fun, it's fine because our love grows from those memories.
I want to shower you with affection.
I'm not the best with hugs and kisses. Sometimes I give too much and other times, not enough. But I'll find my second home in your arms and cherish those small moments when I kiss your forehead.
I want those lazy days where we make out in bed in just our underwear and peaceful night where we cuddle and just talk.
And when things get tough, I don't want to be afraid to show my scars and I want you to be comfortable showing me yours too because there's healing in vulnerability.
Maybe I'm clingy, perhaps I just suck at dating but I am a lover and for me, that's a better way to go.
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