The saddest, most heart-wrenching feeling in the world is the sight of someone you love going in the opposite direction as you in life. Sometimes things are simply not working.
Maybe they want to live in the country, and you want to live in the city. They go to school here, and you go to school there. They won’t leave, but something in you knows that you have to.
The reality of it is, you love this person with your whole heart, but sometimes love just isn’t enough.
For my dearest love,
You have become a part of me, a part of my heart, a piece of my insides that I can’t bear to think of living without. My love for you runs so very deep. Our lives have intertwined so much that nothing makes sense without you. Life doesn’t make sense without you. I don’t make sense without you.
I could stay and love you. I could stay and be your partner, be your forever, be your happily-ever-after. But there would always be a missing piece inside of me. A piece that will always question if I did the right thing by staying and loving you, by not trying to take on the world on my own, by not taking the risk.
There is something out there for me, I just know it. There is magic and stardust and adventure and excitement. There is something pulling me away. Something telling me not to settle down here and stay complacent with this life. Though you are here, I know that there is more than just this.
It pains me to think of life without you. It rips me apart and makes me feel broken, but there is something telling me that this isn’t right and that it’s time for us to part ways.
I could stay and love you, my dearest love, but I have to go. You have to let me go. Because if you don’t, our lives will become filled with resentment and “what-ifs.” And isn’t it better to leave us beautifully happy like this?
I know that one day I may look back and question if I did the right thing, I might question if I left the best thing that ever happened to me go. I am willing to take that risk.
I am not someone's storybook ending, I am not in a fairytale, I am not anyone's happily-ever-after.
I am simply someone who wants to explore and see more of this incredibly exciting life before I stay here and live this life with you.
Perhaps one day the Universe will cross our paths. Perhaps we will find each other again.
I could stay and love you, but for now, my darling, I must go.