"Disappointment is a sort of bankruptcy - the bankruptcy of a soul that expends too much in hope and expectation" - Eric Hoffer
I believed every word that came out of your mouth. And as I see now, that was so stupid.
I believed that you'd be my future, the person I was going to say I do with, but I guess things change...
But the biggest thing I believed was that you were never going to leave.
You swore on everything in you, that you would die without me.
Yet you're the one who left. And who is definitely not dead without me.
I'm so broken.
And it's all because of you. I wish I had never given you this much power over me.
I wish I hadn't have been so blinded by love that I lost sight of the real person you were.
The person who just said whatever he thought would make me the happiest.
The person who had no idea who he was but knew how to manipulate me to think he did.
You were the man every mom warns their daughter about, and trust me, my mom warned me about you.
But of course, I didn't listen. I fell for all of your lies.
I fell for the boy who seemed too good to be true because he was!
And it broke every part of me.
It's sad to think that letting one person in your life can change so much about you...
But I guess you have to learn somehow...
I just still can't wrap my head around how it all was just an act... You say you loved me, but your actions say the complete opposite.
You say I was the best thing you ever had and that's why you had to let me go. That makes no sense!
You just wanted to do your own thing. And I knew you were doing it even when we were together.
Your heart is so cold and cruel but it will catch up to you one day...
And even though you lied about how you'd stop breathing if we ever broke up, I know one thing is the truth.
I'm going to find someone so much better.
And I hope the pain you've made me feel comes back and breaks you so much worse.