You walked out without saying a word, during what I thought was the happiest time in our lives.
I don't know where you went or why. I just know that I suffered a broken heart that I thought would never heal.
And here we are, after so much time, looking into each other's eyes again. You shouldn't be here. I can't let you take away the happiness I worked so hard for.
But, I want answers. Where did you go? Why didn't you grow the balls to tell me you were leaving? How are you so calm right now? You're standing there like you just finished a yoga class with the fucking Dali lama.
I feel a connection with you, but I shouldn't. You are just a stranger now.
We are just strangers, who at one point in time loved each other more than should be possible.
It takes everything in me not to scream at you. Not to lash out and say all the hurtful things I held in for so long.
Yet here you are- riding into my life again like some Valiant knight with shitty timing.
You were everything to me. Lazy summer days, long winter nights. Everything little girls dream of in happily ever afters. Stolen kisses and mischievous firsts. That was all you.
You left me.
What makes you think you can pop up in my life? Did you truly think that I would welcome you back with open arms?
I'm not the girl you knew before. You will never know the person I've become, you don't deserve to.
You are not welcome here. Not in my home and not in my heart.
I am finally happy. I don't need you anymore. I've found someone else- I have someone I can count on. I have someone who treats me with the respect that you could never muster. I have someone who would never toss me aside, but who loves me unconditionally.
So once and for all. This is good bye... again.