You know, there's really no feeling quite like betrayal.
Betrayal cuts deep into your soul, your mind, and your heart.
It hurts like a scab you pick off over and over. The wound is old but it still bleeds the same. And it never seems to quite heal.
Betrayal from a lover? It hurts, temporarily.
But it's more expected, so it's easier to accept and heal, and move on.
Betrayal from a best friend?
It's life-shattering. It breaks a part of you that you never expected to fall apart.
You can't plan for the emotional damage that losing your best friend causes. It's not something you can just get over. Your world turns upside-down.
Sometimes "time" does not heal all wounds.
They were the person that knew every little piece of you. The good, the bad, and the ugly. You shared everything with them.
They've seen you at your worst. They know things that you wouldn't dare speak to another soul. They loved you at your lowest point.
When they betray you. It breaks your heart in the worst way possible. It's physically painful.
It makes you question everything.
It leaves you lost, confused, and broken.
When someone that deeply intertwined in your soul rips that trust away from you, it can never be restored. This is where "forgive and forget" will never be an option.
And that's the saddest part.
That is what will ache inside of you. No matter how many new friends you make, the hurt will always be buried deep inside of you.
Even if they apologized, and begged for your forgiveness. Mentally, you will not be able to forgive them.
You can try to give them closure by saying you forgive them, and for a second, you might even believe it.
But when it comes down to it, things won't ever be the same.
You'll never be able to be vulnerable around them.
You'll never let your guard down.
And you'll never trust their intentions.
No matter how hard you try, you cannot save this friendship. The bond of your loyalty has been destroyed, and this is something that cannot be rebuilt with time.
It's a hard pill to swallow, but the biggest favor you can do yourself is to leave it in the past.
Never forget the special moments you shared, and don't forget the unique love you had for each other.
And remember in the future: even salt looks like sugar.