It's not okay that you only want me when you need me.
It isn't okay that you play the victim and it isn't okay that you pretend that you're a kind, deserving person.
You don't deserve anything from me because you're the one who took so much from me in the first place. You used me to comfort yourself and you played with my feelings because you were unsure of you own.
You saw that my heart was open and that I was maybe a little broken, and you took advantage of all that I was willing to give you.
You tortured my heart and played with my head until there was absolutely nothing left. I still remember the days that I couldn't get out of bed or even make myself dinner.
I remember the days that I ignored everyone else for you, because you were all I wanted. And I remember how much that didn't matter to you.
And now you want me. You want my time, my attention, my love. But it's way too late because you had all of that, you had all of me, and you abused it and threw it away.
So you don't get to know how I'm doing or what my life is like. You don't even get to say you're sorry because anything you say is meaningless.
Nothing you say or do will ever change how I feel about you, because I feel nothing for you. And I don't ever want to feel anything for you again.
So when you call and I don't answer, it's because I changed my number. When you look for me and I'm gone, it's because I moved on.
When you miss me and I don't care, it's because of the choices you made a long time ago.
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