I've become the queen of broken relationships all because I don't know how to let my guard down.
I've gotten so good at breaking hearts that it doesn't even hurt anymore. I can't seem to love someone the way they love me. It is one of the hardest things to be so guarded yet want love so badly.
I can't explain how many times I've looked into someone’s eyes seeing their love for me and not knowing how to return it. I'm selfish, I hate compromising and sharing isn't really a word I know. And I just think the success stories are too good to be true.
But you're different. I look at you and I see so much more than a man who wants me now but eventually will give up. I see a man who loves every broken piece of me, even the ‘bad at love’ thing and It's crazy how it makes my heart skip a beat.
I feel myself wanting to love you the way I know you will love me, and it's the most frightening thing I have ever felt in my life. You make believe that maybe heartbreak won't always be a thing.
I may be bad at love, but you still want to try, and that makes my heart so eager even though my brain wants me to keep guard up.
I don’t know if I’m ready to take such leap of faith. I really don’t know what it’d take for me to open up and give this love thing a fair shot. All I know is that your love seems honest and pure and it’s slowly allowing me to look at love from a different perspective.
It might be the first step for me to learn what love is really about. I can’t promise anything to you just yet, but I need you to know that I’m aware of all your efforts and for that I thank you.
Thank you for wanting to break down my walls and prove to me that being afraid of love doesn't save me.
Thank you for being the man who looks into my eyes and finally gives me goosebumps realizing I could spend my life with you. This might be the one thing that gets through to my heart.
Thank you for being the man I know will never give up on me even though I'm bad at love.