When a child speaks, there is a blatant difference between the words that come from them, and the words that have been fed to them.
My step-son turned to me once and said, "I want to live at mommy's forever."
Out of curiosity, I asked him, "Why's that?" He said to me "I came from mommy's belly and not yours."
When that innocent child looked into my eyes and told me that; in that moment, the words he spoke didn't hurt me because I know those weren't his words.
My heart hurt for him. My heart hurts for every child that is used as a pawn.
He has been told that his father is not a parent to him, that he only needs one family, and even that his father's last name does not belong to him.
This innocent child's best interests are not a priority. What seems to be a priority is how to use him against us.
No child should be told adult issues they do not have the concept of understanding.
My only question is how can you love your child if you're using them as a weapon?
I am disgusted that a child can be torn apart again and again by their own.
As a step parent, this breaks us because we can't do anything about it.
Every moment that child gives me random kisses, shares his blanket with me, follows me around, cries for me and tells me he loves me... it builds me up and it makes me stronger.
This journey has given me love that was few get to experience; pure unconditional love.
No, this child is not mine.
But I don't let them starve because "they are not mine."
I would never let them stay in pain and not take them to the hospital, because "they are not mine"
So no. I will never step down because they are not mine.
I will continue to be the best step parent I can.
But what I can't change is the bullshit that he is being fed.
I want to do my best to protect him, but at the end of the day, I would never turn him against his birth mother.
What I will do is continue to do everything in my power to make my step son feel he is loved and cared for.
And even though my heart is full of anger, I will stay humble and kind, but I will not be silenced.
My fight for my step-son manipulated into thinking his parent doesn't love him is not over.
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