You're so full of self-doubt and you criticize yourself too harshly. When you get in a slump your doubts and self-loathing reach a point where you feel utterly helpless.
Your friends can try to cheer you up, but you've convinced yourself that you're a burden to them, so you try not to bother them with your inner struggles.
When they do notice your sadness, you brush off their compliments, chalking their kindness up to friendly obligation.
It's incredibly isolating when you're at war with yourself, and you can't figure out how to let anyone else in.
All you want to do is learn how to love yourself until the thoughts in your head are kind affirmations and compliments, and you want to be able to believe them.
Learning to love yourself is a long journey, but ultimately the relationship with yourself is the longest and most special one you'll ever have.
So the work is worth it. You are worth it.
You have a thousand little quirks that make you special. If a stranger saw you sitting alone at a coffee shop, reading your favorite book, sipping on your favorite iced coffee.
They won't think you're annoying, they won't think you're stupid, they won't know you doubt yourself every day.
A guy might see a cute girl who adorably raises her eyebrows while reading shocking portions of her book. He may think about her all night.
When you walk down the street pensively thinking, someone will probably see a girl with ambition, a life to plan, a mind that often drifts away to dreams and future plans.
They don't know your stress and insecurities. They see only you.
When you lose your keys and let out an audible: "shit" someone will probably giggle relating to your frustration because in that moment they see themselves in you.
Strangers see a person with wants, needs, hopes and fears. They think of you as no less than them.
You are not out of place among them. Some may notice you, some may like you, some may be taken by your smile.
Some may want to know more about you.
You probably leave more impressions on people than you think.
You don't have to let your internal struggle define you.
People will see you as a whole human being capable and worthy of love, intelligent and unique, strong and independent, even if you don't see it yourself.
The best medicine for getting out of your head is jumping into someone else's.
Someone who knows nothing, but your kind smile and the hint of sadness in your eyes.
Someone will prove your specialness to you, but until then picture yourself through their eyes–– the person who will love all the things you hate about yourself. Or picture yourself through the eyes of someone who knows nothing about you.
Give yourself a fresh start.