I'm in love again. I've tried really, really hard since we've broken up to find what we had. I never could.
I think that's for multiple reasons. I could never find what we had again because it was unique. It was something only you and I will ever be able to know. I was also looking to all the wrong things and people to fill the space that had been created inside me.
I hear your laugh when we're in the same area, it is so easy to pick out of a crowd. I can find your walk in a horde of moving bodies. I think about the lessons we taught each other and I think about all the memories we created.
You were my first love. You sparked something so amazing inside of me.
After we broke up, I never knew how to let you go...I didn't know if I ever could. If I ever would. I thought you were going to haunt me for the rest of time, your empty space next to me, forever pressing.
I met him the same way I met you. It was unexpected and I wasn't interested. The second we made eye contact, though, a light was sparked inside me once again. Somehow, it was so different than it was with you.
I smile when I think of you, not because I miss you, want you, or need you...but because of everything you did for me. Because of you, I am able to appreciate and love the person in my life the best way I can.
I will never be able to recreate what we had, and I don't want to. The relationship and love that blankets me are so unique and exquisite, I wouldn't change it in any way.
I've moved on from you, but I will never forget you. I want you to know that I'll think about you when my children experience their first love. I'll think about you when their first major break-up happens.
Everything in my life is so different now. It is nothing like I thought it would be, but I am so dang happy with the way it is.
I heard you moved on too. I watched you guys laugh together and talk intimately. I want you to know how happy that makes me. Your happiness was always so important to me. I hope you know that seeing you happy, even with someone else, brings me peace.
Maybe you think about me too from time to time, maybe you don't. But I look at the one I love now, and I couldn't imagine my life without them...ever. The love for them is rooted so deeply in me, it hurts in such a beautiful way. I need you to know that I wouldn't be able to love, laugh, or even breathe with such ease if I had not had you in my life when I needed you...so, thank you.