They say we hurt the one's we love the most, but why? This has forever been a question that goes unanswered and drives me 50 shades of crazy.
I love you, but I hurt you the most. Why do I do that?
Hurting the one's we love doesn't even begin to make sense and the thought is far more complicated to fathom. Shouldn't we hurt the one's that give us a legitimate reason to hurt in return - the one's who legitimately create a rage deep within us or the one's who hurt us so deeply that the edges of our heart becomes comparable to pieces of shattered glass?
I don't know if the fact of having a closer relationship, a deeper bond, or a greater affection has anything to do with hurting you, but all I can say is I'm sorry. From the deepest, darkest pit of the bottom of my heart I am so sorry.
I've read that Psychology says, "love relationships are mirrors of the inner self." Basically what this means is that we are more likely to take into consideration what comes from our loved one's, which ultimately explains our times of overreacting and times of hurt towards the one's we love.
Unconsciously, we are much more likely to believe our loved one's when they point out criticisms and put-downs. Thus, causing us to take to heart and feel more criticized than we would if similar point outs were made by strangers.
The psychological aspect behind this still doesn't make complete sense to me, if love isn't meant to be hurtful then why do I hurt you the most? Someone please answer this for me before the entire universe goes ape-shit.
I take (what seems to be everything) out on you - stress, bad grades, shitty professors, roommate shenanigans, Aunt P and her monthly visit, the way you say something and my emotional psychopathic ass interprets it the wrong way. Everything basically.
You don't deserve it, and I apologize with everything in me for the times that I have and the times that I will hurt you when all you're doing is loving me. Just remember that these times are temporary, but my love for you is permanent.