I’ve spent a lot of time searching. I searched the deepest parts of my soul, the dark crooks in my life, even the people around me.
All this time delving into the truth has been for a reason: it’s been for me, for those around me, for those who’ll find their ways into my life in the future.
Even for the guy I’ll fall in love with one day, some day, soon.
I believe that you should figure out who you are as a person before you can give yourself to somebody completely. I’m not saying it’s impossible to find love without that kind of self-actualization—just, for me it’s necessary.
The less I knew who I was, the more unable I was going to be in finding love. My identity would define the way I love.
So I’ve found it—tirelessly. I’ve drowned in my tears, felt pain so deep I thought I was broken. I’ve smiled larger than life.
All for the sake of love.
And I’ve found me, I’ve found my path to my future. I’ve figured a lot of the enigma of my life out.
I am ready for you, wherever you are, whenever you come.
And I’ve realized the point at this time isn’t actually if I’m ready, since I’m confident in the fact, but rather if you will be.
When I find you, will you break my heart because you aren’t looking for love? Or because you didn’t give finding yourself the time I did?
Will you be ready for me?
I hope you prepare yourself, tirelessly, the way I have for you, that you’ll search the deepest parts of your soul to make sure mine fits effortlessly into yours.
I don’t want all this work to be for nothing. Give me something, anything, everything, if you can.
Let’s try to find each other in the pieces that were once broken, all the parts of us we’ve found, and put them together.
That is, if you’re ready for it.
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