You tell her you're not a mind reader, that it's not your fault. Because how are you supposed to know that something's wrong if she doesn't tell you?
But if you only took the time out to pay attention, you could see the sadness in her eyes when you ask if she’s okay. You could see the welling of the tears, as she pushes them back so they don't drip down her face.
If you only listened a little harder, you could hear the desperation in her voice when she tells you she needs more. She needs you to show her you care, to take that extra step. To remind her that you're willing to fight for her, for everything you have together.
If you only looked a little deeper, you could see the emptiness in her glare, as feelings of never being good enough rush over her when you look into her eyes. You would see the hundreds of scenarios flashing through her mind like lightning in a vicious storm; the fears of you, too, seeing the same flaws that she obsesses over, and leaving because they're just too much to handle.
If you just paid a little more attention, you would feel the beating of her heart; it races when you're near, as her mind tells her that something isn't right. You'll never stay.
If you just paid attention, you could feel the hesitance in her touch, as she pulls back to prepare herself for what is to come. As she prepares herself for the day that you find someone better.
If you only listened a little harder, you could hear the shakiness when she speaks those three beautiful words, I love you. As she’s scared to keep giving such large pieces of herself to people who don't cherish them; to people who give her their love, then take it away.
If you only paid attention, you could hear the raging of the silence, as her thoughts take over in the darkness of the night.
If you only paid attention, you could see the pain. You could see the emotions, as they squeeze her vocal chords, choking her just enough to send a warning. So she does not speak for the fear of rejection, the fear of judgment, the fear of misunderstanding.
If you only paid attention, you could see that she’s crying out for you. Dying for you to pull her close and tell her everything's going to be okay. She is screaming for your affection, your reassurance, your love.
If you just paid attention, you could see that she has been hurt, but she needs you. You could see past the "I'm fine" and the "It's okay." You could see that she… she’s afraid.
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