You walked away without a warning and my world immediately shattered into a million pieces. The heartache dimmed the light of my soul, but eventually I learned that our relationship was not meant to last, and that I had to forgive you in order to move on.
It was hard to move on from all the pain that you’ve caused, But do I hate you? No....not exactly.
You hurt me, there is no doubt about that but I’ve come to understand my emotions better, and how I really feel about the whole situation.
I don't wish things hadn't ended between us. I just wish they had ended differently.
And that’s because despite the fact of us not being able to make it as a couple, I respected you as a person and I thought you respected me too. I thought we were friends above anything else.
I deserved an honest conversation, so I was surprised and disappointed when everything that I thought our relationship was, was not, and that everything that I thought you were, you were not.
I was hurt and confused and taken aback because you took me for granted. But I could never hate you, simply because I know that you can’t force people to love you or care for you. The fact that you left without an explanation is not reflective of who I am but of who you are. I could never do that to someone, so my my conscious is clear.
You made me sad but not resentful because I know my worth. As for you, I hope you are happy. No matter where you are or who you are with.
I hope you find someone that makes you feel alive. Someone that makes your soul dance. That person obviously wasn't me. And that is okay.
I hope when you think of me, you at least think of me fondly.
Most importantly, I hope you find peace. I know you were struggling with that when we were together.
More than anything, that is what you deserve.
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