I have a beast that lives inside of me. He claws his way through trying to destroy me. If only it would kill me. No. He can't do that. The he wouldn't be able to live off of me.
I have an autoimmune disease. Hashimotos Hypothyroidism to be exact.
This disease effects my whole body and mind. Nothing goes untouched.
Imagine you sleep for 16 hours and never feel rested at all. 16 whole hours and I still feel excused. It makes it nearly impossible to go out with friends or spend time with family. I drag through my work day and just want to go home and sleep.
And weight gain! I don't care how much I work out and walk or even run I can never seem to lose weight. But Heaven forbid I want to eat unhealthy because I will gain ungodly amounts.
And let's not forget the hair loss. At one point I had beautiful, thick, long hair. Not any more. It's just so so. And that's while taking meds to help it thicken up. I was almost bald at one point.
It also causes other issues, like infertility. It's not very likely I will be able to have a baby without a lot of help. Even after getting pregnant, carrying to term is almost unheard of.
Now let's talk about the depression it causes. There are days that I don't want to get out if bed. I feel like I'm drowning in this world. All because this beast messes with my hormones.
This beast will not die. It will be the death of me.