Sometimes we fall for the wrong person even when we think they are the right one.
We met in college, I would say it was love at first sight, but we both know it wasn't. Not for you anyway. I was too plain.
You were the boy every girl fell over herself to even sit beside in class. You had an air about you that said dangerous and protective all at the same time.
You started to talk to me in class, I never understood why.
After class, you asked me to the movies. Obviously, I said yes. I mean what girl in their right mind wouldn't.
Things took off from there. I fell fast and hard. I thought you did as well.
A date turned into two, and that turned in to me changing my relationship status online. We were good together. I learned so much from you.
Your family accepted me as one of their own. I thought we would be together forever. We were talking marriage and babies. We even had names picked out.
I never thought things would go so wrong.
You were in the Army and had to deploy.
When you came home, we threw a party and had all your buddies over. You got plastered. I was worried about your grumpy hangover- I didn't realize I had other things to worry about.
A few weeks later we were settling into our normal routine. Work and school. "I love you, see you soon." Became our normal phrase.
Until one night a knock on the door came. It was a friend of one of yours, but I didn't really know her. She said she needed to talk to you- that it was important.
I automatically knew why.
She was beautiful. Skinny. Dressed to the nine's. She was nothing like me.
She was pregnant with your child. A mini you. Your second chance.
I should have known that I wasn't good enough. Maybe I wasn't good enough for you.
Or maybe I was too good for you.
I stayed faithful to you through war. I stayed faithful through fights and arguments that would send a lot of girls running. I loved you through it all.
You, however, couldn't keep it in your pants one drunk night and had to rip us all apart.
After years of second-guessing my self-worth, and wondering where I went wrong I have finally figured it out.
You weren't good enough for my love.
I deserved so much more than the heartache and tears you left me with. I deserved the world you promised me.
Let me tell you. One day, I'll have it.