I’ve spent way too long wondering how the person who claimed to love me so deeply could just betray me the way you did. How were you able to put me through so much grief and pain and not be affected by it?
I suppose that’s a question I will never have answered. But that’s okay because I have finally realized that I wasn’t the problem and that it was not my responsibility to fix you or make you love me, so I forgive you.
I have finally decided to forgive you for all that you have done, not because you have apologized, or even because you acknowledged the pain that you have put me through, but because my soul deserves peace.
I forgive you.
I forgive you for making all those promises you couldn’t keep.
Like saying you would never hurt me, then destroying me just as quickly as the words, “I love you” fell off of your lips.
For making me fall so deeply in love with you, and then leaving as quickly as you came.
And for filling my head with our future dreams together; the white picket fence, the wedding bells, even though you knew that would never come true, because they were just that. Dreams.
I’m tired of hating you, and for blaming you. You’ll never see what you’ve done wrong, so what’s the point?
Just know that I have a big enough heart to forgive you. But don’t take that as a sign of weakness, I’ve learned that holding a grudge doesn’t make you stronger, it only makes you bitter. Forgiving someone doesn’t make you weak, it sets you free.
It's time for me to be free.
I used to think that you were this perfect person, brought into my life for a good reason. I thought you were my future.
But you weren’t, and you never will be.
You were just another stepping stone and another lesson to be learned.
You shattered my heart, you betrayed me time after time. You said you’ll do better and change, boy was I wrong. It seemed that the longer we were together the less you cared.
And it’s taken me this long to, but I figured it out. You’re not sorry.
But I still forgive you.
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