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I Forgive You But I Don’t Ever Want You Back in My Life

It was really hard for me to come to this point but today I can say with all certainty that my heart has forgiven you. This doesn’t mean that the thought of what you did doesn’t sting my soul anymore. It does, but I’ve come to terms with this bitter reality and I can finally put my anger towards you behind me.

I think the anger I was feeling towards you was too toxic and it was slowly corroding my soul. It was showing me a dark side of me I never knew I had and I didn’t like how hopeless and gloomy it made me feel. Hate felt foreign to me and heavy in my heart and I didn’t want it to become a part of me.

I didn’t deserve what you did to me but in some way, I feel that I’m responsible for how much I allowed it to affect me. I don’t think you realize how much the pain that you inflicted destroyed me, so I don’t think it was fair to hold on to a grudge that you cared very little for.

Hating you doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t diminish the pain that you’ve caused, it doesn’t change you, it doesn’t even punish you in any way, so I shouldn’t fill my heart with something that’s only going to hurt me.

The pain that you inflicted was enough to bare and now it’s my job to find the silver-lining if I don’t want this experience to be in vain.

At some point I had to realize that my anger was giving you way too much power than you actually deserved. The best way to heal my soul from the pain that you caused was through forgiveness.

Forgiveness gives me closure. Forgiving you makes me the bigger person. Because I know in my heart I never failed you and I gave you the best of me wholeheartedly. I can sleep at night knowing that I didn’t do anything wrong. So forgiveness allows me to move on without regrets.

I’ve decided to forgive you because it’s the best thing to do for me. I have to look out for myself and do what’s best for my heart. This means, I have zero sympathy for you moving forward. I don’t want you in my life because you simply don’t deserve to be a part of my world.

You had your chance with me and you blew it. I won’t be mean to you but I will be stern and firm if you try to sneak back into my life. You have my forgiveness and that’s all I need to close this chapter of my life once and for all.

With all sincerity, I accept and appreciate what I went through with you because it has taught me what I’m worth and how to set boundaries, so this never happens to me again. I choose to forgive you, move on and never allow you back in my life ever again.

My life is already so much better without you.

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