It's funny how life works out. They teach you that if you love someone let them go and if they come back they were always meant to be yours and if they don't, they never were.
But like everything else, we're also taught not to take our ex's back in fear that they will hurt us all over again.
And you came back into my life when I thought I had everything together. You came back with a beautiful promise of a relationship, but then you changed your mind about the relationship because you were selfish.
I guess I shouldn't have been surprised when you told me you had changed your mind, you did it so easily the last time too.
But yet, you expected me to still be there, in case you needed me or just wanted me. You wanted me to continue to play the puppet. I don't play those rules, never have and never will.
I fell for you when I didn't want to and I fell for you even though you warned me not to.
But I hope you find the happiness you want and deserve because I realized you never did bring me the happiness I wanted nor deserved.
You kept me on edge and caused me to overanalyze every last second we spent together, wondering if I did something wrong and how long it would take to hear from you once again.
I didn't deserve the half-assed attempts at "making plans" and "starting over" that you exhibited.
Soon enough you'll put together the clues I've left you, that'll show you that I've, in fact, put this entire situation behind me and moved on without a second glance.
One day, you'll realize exactly what you lost when you lost me and when that day comes, I'll be gone and happy without you once again.
But at the end of the day, I didn't need you to put me first in your life, because I couldn't put you first either. I just needed you to try.
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