She's a beautiful disaster too distracted by the chaos of her mind to see all the beauty in her life. But she has a heart of gold, she's just never really known anything right.
A number of relationships from the past left her stranded, and left her trust in the dust.
Her past wounded her perception of love in general and now her over analyzing mind focuses in on situations and scenarios that have not happened nor have any real reason behind them to back them up.
Confidence begins with self-love -- neither of which she feels she has. It's a cruel and harsh world for her or at least she sees it that way. She's a mind full of negativity in a world full of positives
She's always finding something wrong with herself, something she must fix, something she wishes she could change, and something that would make loving her impossible. It’s all a defense mechanism to protect her wounded heart.
Her past made her a bit feisty but she’s strong and deep down knows that she’ll overcome her demons. But in the meantime she hopes that the ones that love her can continue to stick around. She’s working hard to mend her heart, so she can look at the world with more positivism.
She doesn’t want to be so guarded. She wants learn how to turn her mind off, keep her mouth shut, and contain her never-ending flood-like emotions.
She wishes to one day be able to give all of her without hesitation without getting so caught up in her mentally and emotionally draining past.
She knows that she’ll eventually get there, but in the meantime, please be gentle with her heart.
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