He’s been my best friend for years. When we first met I knew he liked me as more than a friend but I was pretty sure we weren’t meant to be anything more.
I never felt a spark with him that I thought I was supposed to. He knew how I felt and respected it. He was never pushy or inappropriate.
He’s been my go-to and my shoulder to cry on now for some of the most influential parts of my life, I don’t know where I would be without him. There’s nothing that he wouldn’t do for me.
He’s been with me while I changed and made mistakes and learned from them. He helped me through every bad day and every break up.
I’ve always wanted him to find someone who made him happy. I wanted to see him fall in love, I knew how badly he wanted to.
And I don’t know when my mind started to change about him. It seemed to just hit me out of nowhere.
But all of the sudden I was overwhelmed when I looked into his eyes and I found myself never wanting to say goodbye.
I couldn’t stop thinking about him in ways I never had before. I thought about what life would be like if I spent it with him.
A life with him sounded like heaven on earth when I really thought about it. He had so much love to give and I wanted all of it. I wondered if I could be the one to make him happy.
All I wanted was another chance as more than friends but never could work up to guts to just tell him. I was scared of what he would say and even more scared of losing him.
And like best friends do, we tell each other everything. So on the day he told me he was in love with someone else I felt my heart fall into my stomach and my eyes felt like a waterfall.
I felt the best thing I never had taken right out of my reach. I had no right to be upset, after all the time I spent reminding him we were just friends.
But I know I’ll never find someone who loves me as much as he does. I know I’ll never meet a better man with a better heart than him.
My heart aches when I think about the life I might have missed out on and I know it’s my fault and that I’m a terrible person for thinking this but all I can do is hope that he realizes one day that we might be meant to spend our lives together.
What a cliché it is, you know the one. The perfectly sweet guy is secretly in love with his longtime best friend, the girl next door type.
He sits back and watches while she falls in and out of love, and he waits around hoping one day she’ll realize he’s meant for her.
But one day he faces reality and moves on from the girl he spent years loving from the sidelines. He finds someone who treats him the way he deserves.
And when she finally realizes she loves him too, it’s too late.
I always watch those movies and think to myself how naive those girls are to let guys like that slip out of their sight.
I tell myself every time that if I had a guy like that I’d never let him go. I’d love him for the rest of my life.
But what I didn’t know was how easy it was to overlook them, completely by accident.
I didn’t know that I’d been doing the same thing those naive girls were for years.
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