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If Your Heart Feels Permanently Bound to Him, Read This

Love really never proved to be on your side in the past, but you never gave up on it. And no matter what happened in your life, you kept an open mind and a giving heart. It doesn’t really make sense and it’s definitely nowhere near fair.

You had your life, and sure there were things you wish you could change or struggles you could live without, but you did the best you could and found your “happy enough”.

But even so, you never expected that an extraordinary love could make its way into the cracks of your heart, so when he came along, your world just turned upside down.

He promised a future you only ever dreamt about.

You felt safe with him but also, like you were on the adventure of a lifetime. He loved you in a way no other person, let alone man ever had.

Your life felt purposeful and your love felt meaningful.

This wasn’t some mediocre love you could control, it just felt bigger than the two of you.

So when it got too big for him to handle, he walked away.

You had your life, you were happy with it, but you never settled and still you feel punished.

It’s not your fault, and you didn’t deserve to feel something so magical for only a short bit of time just have to return to a life without it. That’s not an easy thing to cope with, especially when none of it was what you wanted.

And even if you know, deep down, that he’s not the one, or that you can do better, it doesn’t mean you’re wrong to hurt or even still want what you had.

It may not have been a forever kind of love, but none the less you felt the strength and potential of love and how it can change every aspect of your life. And that is just not something you move on from.

You carry that feeling in your heart forever, and you should never be ashamed of that. He gave you that feeling, so whether you want to or not, there will just always be a connection to him.

And right now, it may be unbearably painful to feel like you may never get him out of your heart but when your heart heals and doesn’t feel so heavy, you’ll be glad to have the extra weight.

Because there will come a time when you stop religiously checking his social media accounts or waiting for a text from him.

Even the thought of another moment without him won’t overwhelm you. It won’t happen at once, but there will be a day when you’re more focused on your life that you slowly let go of him as the person you were supposed to spend forever with.

So for now, love him as long as you need to because one day he will be an important piece of the puzzle. One day, you will remember how he made you feel loved, and you will remember this heartbreak and you will know exactly what you want from someone else.

One day all the pieces will fit together, and you’ll really truly feel a love you’ll never have to live without.