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An Open Letter to the Universe

Dear Universe,

Have you been so kind to me lately because of the avalanche of pain you once dropped on my heart? Did you plan it this way?

You took something from me; you took a piece of life from the center of my heart: the fauna and flora of one’s spirit.

It was the pin that kept the machine of my body together. You pulled it out and everything fell apart, replacing it with hate and failure, guilt and despair, confusion and resentment.

Thank you.

Thank you for the yin and yang that you have shown me – that you have made me believe in. Thank you for the darkness, and for the pain; thank you for the tragedy.

Your lightning bolts crushed my very core and in the havoc of desperation, my soul began to drown. You left me: flailing, and lost, and alone.

I found a deep platoon in the depths of the shattering earthquake that you built for me and then I just decided to call it home.

I am able to see the iridescent morning because you scoured night for so long; I am able to feel your warmth because I have seen your storm.

Now your beauty consumes me. When your warm breeze wraps around my shoulders I feel at ease; I feel alive; I am awake.

The tiny ticks of breath between tragedy and beauty have taught my legs to bare the weight again.

You have given me time, and dreams – and whatever it is that lives between those two. You have shown me magic and sunrises, bits of death and pieces of life.

You have furnished me with armor and have played a wonderful song of demise: an eternal halo that rests at the tip of an inquisitive blank sentence.

You have fed my desire for more, and where I once wallowed in fear of the larger spans of life, now I want it all.

Thank you for sharing it all with me. 

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